Friday April 15, 2005
Just 3 days to go (to the neck surgery) and I'm getting anxious. Not about the surgery itself, but about what I'll be UNABLE to do for the first weeks while the bone is healing. That, and waiting to hear WHETHER I'm still scheduled for Monday or whether my liver will make me wait even longer. (There is an upside to that, too, of course --- at least for terminal optimists like me: waiting may allow me to access the disc replacements that will be going on in London soon.)
Prioritizing what's left to do now includes getting anything requiring lifting or driving done by Sunday afternoon. There's another category of "things only I can do" vs "things just about anybody can do for/with me". And then the "things I'll need some dough to do" (this category somewhat overlaps the first priority list as well).
Woke fairly early (7:30 am) and in mega pain again. Thought I was in for another day like that nasty one last weekend but the codeine, coffee and decongestants have done the trick.
There's a little voice in my head. A devilish one that says my pain isn't all that bad... I can do without this ordeal. But that's the codeine talking. Once I start paying real attention when I'm doing simple things (like washing my hair, lifiting that jug of filtered water) I remind myself that these things shouldn't cause pain. And it's not all about pain. This operation is hopefully going to restore some lost strength and coordination in my right arm and hand and allow me to do some things I haven't in many years due to the irritation that results. Things like kayaking, running, swimming, building things (yeah, with hammer and nails and such!)
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